Tiffany Lynn Searle

Three months have past and I should have wrote this a long time ago but wanted it to be just right! So know that I've had time I'd like to write my thoughts of one of my best friend in Life my sister Tiffany!

Tiffany is and was such an amazing person. I hope that years and years down the road I'll be able to meet people that were impacted by her and the life she lived. She has always kept our family together like glue and always wants us to choose heavenly fathers plan :) I'm lucky to have lots of memories with my sister because our personalities are so much alike that we loved doing the same things. I remember when Tiffany first started getting sick we hated not knowing what the disease was that started to make her so weak. It was hard to see her go through all the test, in one test they had to poke her legs alot, alot of times. She said to the nurse "stop stop it hurts, you're so stupid." And after the test was done she looked at the one doing it and said "Sorry you're not stupid you're just trying to get me better" :) Amazing sister how i love your example to be nice to everyone. Tiffany always said she'd get better and we kept hoping in this life too. Unfortunately nothing was ever diagnosed so no treatment or cure was found in this life, but i can assure you my sister is running in heaven now! It was hard to watch Tiffany go through her mortal trial of running, eating whatever, playing with friends to being carried everywhere, drink pedia sure from a straw, and coloring pictures with family. I'm so thankful for all those darling friends that did still come visit and play with tiffany even though she couldn't really do much except for smile. Brittney, you are forsure her best friend you could always get her to smile with anything you did. She loved playing the games you made up watching you dance and just being able to be around you and tease you so loves you so much, Abby and Addy for always finding something to do with her, Emily for playing the guitar and "dream big" on her bad days, Sadie for always saying YES when she called you to play, Cami for always making her laugh, ken lee for coming over lots, exc... even though tiffany couldn't really say how much she loved each of you i know she does and is happy to have friends like you! I loved coming home to see Tiffany on the bed getting ready to hold her favorite Nephew Logan... Who share the same birthday :) Tiffany would just glow when she was around her neice and nephew she was forsure the proudest 9 year old aunt you've ever met.

Just a few days before Tiffany passed I got the thought to go see if mom was on Skype and sure enough at the exact moment mom had signed in. I quickly called her and thank goodness i felt that prompting because that was the last time i got to tell Tiffany i loved her and got to see her beautiful smile... She would always give me our special sign before saying goodbye and you better believe i got that day. She loved skype and i loved being able to call and see her often since i lived far way. I could tell at the time though her little body was tired. It was still so amazing to watch her smile even with pain.

I remember the morning of May 25th so vividly mostly what i felt, when i saw my dad had called at 5 in the morning and also tried calling josh I know why he was calling so early. Heavenly Father had called my sweet sister back to be with him for a while. I say a while because I've come to know for a fact that I'll see me little sister again even though some days I cry (like right now) because i miss her. I know that we have alot more memories to create once we get to heaven! I was sad that i didn't get to say goodbye before she actually pasted but I was so thankful that I was able to hold Tiffanys perfect body again. We left early and on the way i had some of my great friends text and tell me they were thinking of my family and loved us. I loved having the support before I made it home what a world of difference it made to have so many people i love support my family. (love you Shea, Ashlee, Dani) Once we made it we all got together and prayed as a family and were each able to hold and kiss our Tiffany once more. Her spirit was so close and we could feel of her happiness. It was so surreal and still feels like that to this day. The feeling of watching someone's body you love leave the house and knowing they won't be there is probably the emptiest feeling i've ever felt and can't be described perfectly but it hurt to see her leave. Talking to my mom in later weeks the best way we described it was "It makes sense in our heads (the gospel plan), but hurts like Hll in our hearts" Even though Tiffany is not physical with us i know she's always there. I love her so much and even though i miss her like crazy not a day goes by that i don't think of her or how i could be better at dealing with my challenges with a huge SMILE like she always did :) Tiffany you are an amazing sister who i've ALWAYS looked up too. Thanks for fighting so hard and always making the most of life. I miss you so much and can't wait to see you again! With lots of love,

Your sister Kerra



Tiffany on Skype always with a SMILE... :)



Kisses !!!



Best Buddies...



Snow Angel :)


Even though tiffany wasn't sure about the water i was happy she came out boating with us cause it's something i love doing! THanks Bushmans





Christmas Eve, can you tell this girl loved Christmas, 1st because she was spoiled with everything she wanted and 2 because she got to sleep in the basement with all her brothers and sisters :)



She always said logan was going to be born on her birthday and she guessed it right. I know they love each other so much :)



These two are so cute together the are really best friends forever :)


To be continued .......